Terri suggested I plant a garden. A literal planting actually seems to make SO much sense to me! Tavolini suggested I think about the Kudzu and even offered to send some to me (I am investigating this Kudzu! I have never even heard of it! Thank you for your suggestion!) And Alyson actually has a tattoo that reminds her to just BE! I really enjoyed all of your feedback. Thank you.
Going back to this Planting and Gardening idea, Terri's comment really effected me. It always seems like the most obvious things can be so easily overlooked when you think the answers must be complex. Even doing yoga, while a physical act, is still somewhat symbolic of something else. Why not do the physical act of planting when you are trying to root? Interestingly enough, I have had two raised flower bed that my husband lovingly built for me to all of my specifications, when he built our house. That was 8 years ago and I have NEVER laid a seed in those beds. . . or even tried to plant growing potted plants. Last weekend though, before we even started our week of grounding yoga postures, I went out and weeded and tilled both boxes. Cleared them out. When I got Terri's comment I began to ask myself why I have never planted before? The answer was a bit surprising and embarrassing for me. I have never planted because I don't think I have the nurturing capabilities to raise little plants. I fear I will forget to water them or disregard them in a frost and I will cause them to suffer and die due to my lack of attention and discipline. Ouch. I do live in a harsh climate. I know that I may put in my very best effort and still end up committing mass murder on the little darlings. If only by allowing it to happen. But this year, I feel lucky. I think I had already subconsciously decided that this year is the year I am going to do it. I just need to take my time, plan it out, ask for help, be patient, wait for the growing season to officially begin (June 1 in my area) and not skip steps. Let the process be the lesson. I really really need to try to follow through on this.
Shirt, shoes, earrings, belt: vintage
Pants: Flarey from H& M
Bracelet: an African Crafts and Goods store I found in Palm Springs