22.11.10

Truth

I feel like I have been hit by lightning! Not literally, but in the EXCLAMATION POINT!!! I GET IT NOW! SUDDENLY EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE! Sort of lightning bolt sort of strike.  It is, to say the least, enlightening.  I GET it.  I know my Dharma.  I understand what I was MADE for.  My life's purpose.  I thought I knew before, I mean I have always known deep down, but the specificities always mucked things up. I would get too caught up in the HOW and lose track of the WHY. But now I know. This clarity came quite suddenly over a really long period of time. . . 31 years . . . ish. I got little whiffs of it and thought I could almost taste it a couple of times, but I am finally, just now, seeing and understanding the ingredients, and realize that I have them all and can really put these things together and make this thing happen. . . . deep breath in. . . . . . .and out. . . .  . . . Its very exciting. . .  and absolutely terrifying. Exciting to realize that I am perfect for this thing that I will do, and terrifying that in order to fulfill this, I have to move forward with out fear and self doubt. FEAR and SELF DOUBT.  I am not ready to go public with the specifics.  The HOW is my new work. I know I can do it though. I thought for a minute that I was not going to include the internet world in all of this. I was going to quit this blog and move forward, but then I realized that anyone who reads this, and anyone who wishes to, can be a part of this. YOU are a part of my  Dharma. So is everyone else that I come in to contact with, accidentally or on purpose. What we do and feel effects everything around us. But things are going to be different here. I don't know in what ways exactly, but there has been a marked shift inside of me. You are welcome to stay with me as long as you like, and if you decide to go I have no issues with that. This space is progressing along with me on my journey. There might be pictures some days and some times there won't be. I will only be here if I have something to say or ask or share what I have discovered.

I expect that many of you will have no interest in this voyage. For those of you who do, welcome.

45 comments:

Shallow Mallow said...

Hey, congrats. :) All the best, don't let dobut get to you, it 's great to hear you know where you're headed :)

Second Skin said...

Thank you! I am a little high from all of this new information I have about myself. I am looking forward to using this blog as more of a record of my new journey. Thanks for the encouragement.

Swalvs said...

I'm always with you, I know meeting you was like a destiny, and I'll always be beside you whatever you do. And I truly know that you are able to do whatever you want to... So, happy that you have found it! And good luck!

Jodi said...

Intriguing! Ummm. Are you still going to sell clothes in your shop? I noticed it was empty and I was curious.

Mr.Coyan said...

So bold. You have peeked my interest. mostly because I am the same as you and am wondering how your new insights will affect me. can't wait to find out.

San said...

Congratulations from me too. You will rock it, I'm sure. So, good luck and success with it.

I'll stick with you, because it's always interesting to see how persons change over the course of time.

Congrats again and cheers.

Emily said...

Good luck on your new life journey! Whatever it may be I hope only the best for you.

Blessings

Beatrice said...

"I have to move forward with out fear and self doubt."
The way I see it (and live by) is that one has to move forward DESPITE the fear and self-doubt. Face them head-on and do it anyway.

Emily (Tomorrow Never knows) said...

YAY!!! Sounds exciting/terrifying! And whatever you write, I will read. And I may not always comment but I do read it all ;)
GOOD LUCK! I hope the blog stays, I need my christina fix!

Emily (again!) said...

Ummm i clicked publish comment before i was done putting in my web address haha. but u should know it's me :)
sending some good vibes your way! p.s. saving up those pennies! i havent shopped in 2 weeks! haha

amanda said...

i can't wait to see where you go from here and am thankful that you want to take us along with you. it's so awesome that you know what you need to do now, and i know you are strong enough to get it done. you are awesome and that's why we read you're blog. not just cuz you have mad style and are super gorgeous :) you are inspiring!

Brittany said...

Christina, this is wonderful! I am so happy for you & you can do whatever your heart desires, disregard any doubts, any naysayers, anything that's telling you that you can't do this. You can & you WILL! I cannot wait to hear more!

Haiku Ambulance said...

I simply cannot wait.

CHEERS

TO

YOU.

Rose said...

Burning with curiosity! I hope you continue to grace us with your sartorial mojo, at least occasionally, because, well, speaking selfishly, it brightens my day. But I am also intrigued to see what else you have up your sleeve...

Louise said...

I am excited to be a fly on the wall during this exciting period in your life. Thanks for including us in your journey!

hanging on handrails. said...

Oh. Sweet, sweet epiphanies. Can't wait to see what you have in store. (:

archives said...

cannot wait to see where your path is leading! :)

Becca [Free Honey] said...

Amazing! I would be lying if I said I wasn't incredibly curious what your new-found purpose was. To be honest, I feel like I've been waiting for my lightning bolt exclamation point moment for a while now (I'm at the point where I'm going to go ahead and make some changes and move ahead without it...), but it's just good to know that it exists, and that it's possible, and that the pieces come together. Sending good vibes your way to help you in starting your journey.

Anonymous said...

I always knew and felt that you were meant for something BIG :) It was just a matter of Synchronicity
Believe in yourself and you'll do wonders - you have That Magic Touch.
All the best from Montreal.

Katie, Tinda Keelie said...

I'm intrigued beyond all control! Good luck on your journey. I hope I'll be around to witness it. And you're the kind of woman that knows what she's capable of- so you can SO do this!

The Elegant Bohemian said...

Epiphanies of self discovery are wonderful things! It's just as you say, exciting and terrifying at the same time. I'm still with you and curious to see how your blog (as a reflection of you) grows. ~Serene

Terri said...

I am curious to see what unfolds.

I love this new word, the pun of it: enlightning.

Ashley J said...

Good luck and I cannot wait to hear what you have in store for yourself (and your followers).

http://www.afashionfixation.blogspot.com

406 Olivia said...

Intrigued...

AMW said...

wahooo!!

and ditto to all of the above

How wonderful to have found your calling (ive been getting the tastes, but I think the bullseye is a few years out at least).

You are somethin special gal - I cant wait to see what you do next!

Sydney, The Rabbit-Hearted Girl said...

i'm excited to see where you are headed!! keep us updated!

Margaret said...

good luck to you missy! i like that you are multi-faceted and have more to share than fashion... don't get me wrong though, the reason i fell in love with your blog was fashion. :) i wish all the best for you.

margaret
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thebitesizebaker.blogspot.com

RETRO REVA said...

Dearest Christina,
You seem to be experiencing that which all of us are seeking and I am so happy for you :)
Removing ourselves from the 'flow of our source' can be difficult.
I believe we all are aware of our true nature, and where we are supposed to be, but fear (aka, the devil, in "religious" terms ;)is the factor that allows us to stay 'stuck' in place.
i wish you well on your travels and support will always support you as you grow :)
love, peace and tye-dye,
Reva

RETRO REVA said...

ps, i'm not drunk, just having a sleepy typing day ;)
xXx
Reva

RETRO REVA said...

I just popped over to "the site" and it looks really cool :)
I am a student of Wayne Dyer and he is a student of Carlos Casteneda,Zen, many eastern philosophies, and has written books like 'the erogenous zones" and others. We are, and have been studying 'the power of intention' for many months.
I had a "cancer" recently that "disappeared" as well ;)
xXx
Reva

Kimberellie said...

Dearest Christina,

I have been feeling the same way lately. I am actually reading a book: The Misunderstood God: the lies religion tells us about God
and it is totally blowing my mind in the same sort of way.

It does seem that everything is changing, and for the better. I don't know where your ride is going; but so long as it is one of love and giving (and knowing you it is), I'm with you.

heart: Kimberellie

The BB said...

Congrats! I hope that your new endeavors bring you much joy.
Most of us forget how strong and how adaptable we are, glad to hear you have not.
I'm hoping for my own lightning bolt moment.
www.the-beauty-beat.blogspot.com

Italian Postcards said...

Wow, the anticipation is going to kill me... and so will the curiosity!

http://fashionableetsy.blogspot.com/

casual ambiguity said...

I am really excited for you :)

I am in this gorgeous mountain-side town in New Zealand at the moment and it reminds me so much of the Tahoe area!! So I have been thinking of you!

Carolyn said...

So intriguing!
Congratulations on having made important discoveries about your life's direction. I'm looking forward so much to see what you do next. But I hope it involves writing here, because you do it so WELL!

duckalicious said...

man, you must have been so stoned when you wrote this!

just kidding :D I'm familiar with such revelations, it's just kinda funny for others to read.

Merissa said...

If the topic is someone (especially someone as sweet and chipper as yourself) following their dreams, then COUNT ME IN!! Best of luck! I'm so excited!

Panty Buns said...

When I looked up Dharma thoughts went deep immediately and I understood what you meant. How I had been unfamiliar with the word Dharma previously is inexplicable given that I'd reflected on a related aspect of Taoism previously. How inspiring that you have experienced enlightenment. I know it doesn't fit into words easily, but I'll follow along to read your thoughts and experiences relating to the almost indescribable.

kornrose said...

Amazing! You go girl! Most of us spend our whole lives searching for our true calling. Embrace it, love it and, for sure, share it with your adoring fans! namaste.

MissMillie said...

Wow...no wonder the Internet was down: you probably needed some inner silence!
Let this dharma lead you to the nuclear of your true self and if the path doesn't seem as straight as you might expect keep in mind we evolve in permanent change..
Beautiful!
xxxem

Kyla said...

There must be something in the stars right now, because I've been struck with similar awakenings and much gusto to back them up. Can't wait to see it all (mine and yours) come to fruition!

Mina at SpottieOtties said...

are you high? jk. it sucks you aren't sharing the WHAT, but it's cool. I just found your blog recently (this weekend?) and I am going to continue to do so. Good luck :) p.s. its very refreshing to see other fashion blogger moms that are doing well in the blogging world, when that probably wasn't even their intention.

I also am a mom fashion blogger (at 24) my blog didnt start as a fashion blog really, so i didnt have the intention of blowing up (which i have not whatsoever), but if it happens one day, cool. <3 good luck!

corksandcaftans said...

Perfect.

I love this from you.

corksandcaftans said...

I might have already commented but have Vitamin E oil in my eyes so cannot be positive.

What I meant to say was... I feel the electricity! This is so perfect.

I love this from you.

C

Alexa said...

I think that's brilliant and I wish you nothing but the best! I'll definitely be sticking around :)

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