23.2.10

opportunity in loss

These past couple days I have had a whole lot to think about.  Unfortunately, due to a very horrible and untimely event that took place the week before I left for NY, the eating disorder clinic I work at may be closing.  For the time being, I am out of work, and maybe will never be working there again.  I take facts like this a few ways really.  On one hand, I am Sad (for lack of a better adjective) for all the people touched by this incident and since this job was the most rewarding, perfectly tailored position I have ever held, and on another, I feel Thankful that I was able to sample the profession in a safe way, and that I now know that charting a course in that direction would suit me well.  More feelings: Freedom to explore new opportunities or to focus my energy in a new direction, Worry that I will never find anything quite as rewarding, or that I will settle for "good enough" (practical), Motivation to take stock of my gifts and talents to put them to good use, and perhaps, Relaxed knowing that I have no pressing obligations, giving me time to sit quietly and reflect. Fortunately, my circumstances allow me the space to indulge in these emotions and to process them into something constructive. If my situation required me to get a job, I know I would have a completely different set of feelings.  This is where I am right now though.

I am thinking I will immediately get more focused on my Etsy shop.  I sort of used it as a hobby, shopping for it sporadically and listing inconstantly, but I know I can do that all right with a little more focus.  Then, maybe just see what comes.  I feel strange about making my blog my "JOB" since I feel it would change the dynamic and maybe cause me to resent it.  This blog has been something I look forward to every day.   I would love to focus more energy here, but I have to be careful to not make my blog MY LIFE, but ABOUT my life.  Does that make sense?

To the outfit: I feel a bit indie hippie today with my striped cardigan and necklaces.  Funny little story, yesterday I posted about trend cycles and what not, and the focus was sort of on socks with sandals, and at the same time Jen from A Little Bird Told Me. . . did a little socks with sandals combo but this time with skinny jeans, so I, seeing that, thought it was such a good idea and decided to try it, but I don't have any small black socks so I thought I would try my short Walgreens leg warmers  instead (Like Chloe Spring 2010? I don't know seasons) so that my painted toes popped out.  It feels like a great transition actually and looks even better bare legged (I will cook up some examples soon) A little "early adopter" but it felt really cute and cool to me.  So ya, cool.  Right?  I mean, YA! Shrug.

COMMENT OF THE DAY:

Celine said...

I'm so sorry...whatever you went through sounds awful. But I have to say - most people never figure out what really makes them happy and fulfilled in life. I still haven't! So the fact that you can say that, at least, is a truly wonderful thing. I totally know what you mean about your blog not being your entire life. That's what mine is right now and I think I need to get back to having a real job. Ha. Anyway, I love your Etsy shop and definitely think you should put more thought into that! And good luck - with anything/everything :)

37 comments:

The Closet of Kim (ShopKim) said...

I'm really sorry that something you enjoyed so much might be over. It's hard to say goodbye to something like that. It sounds like you have a good take on it though and I'm sure you will end up somewhere you enjoy just as much.

DearBeatrice... said...

Sorry to hear that. Definitely think of it as a door closing and a new one opening. I wish you the best!
and I love the socks and sandals look especially the way you did it here. The socks blend in with the pants so it looks like it's the pants under sandals! ^.^

Sara Lynn said...

I am sorry to hear about your job! I am glad to hear however that you are being very productive and smart. Your personality, though only seen in blog-form is amazing, you have an outlook on life of no one else that I know(Or can think of).

You do look great today! I really cannot wait to get a camera so my indoor pics look better. I really want to look for some sandles like that to try socks with, I was just talking about that last night at dinner. lol.

~Sara

Desiree said...

It is always sad when a door closes, especially a door that was so rewarding. I love that you're looking at it with a positive attitude. The world needs more of that.

As for the outfit, I adore this sweater. The colors are beautiful on you. And those sandals are wonderful!

Stephanie said...

You have the right idea here. Go with your instincts, although you seem like someone who might do that already.

For me, blogging holds a piece of happiness in my day. Something to look forward to if my day is blah. You've often spoke of the joys of the blogging community and I share that same opinion.

Charlie said...

sorry to hear about your job, especially when you really liked it.

The cardigan is great and I think the legwarmers look cute :)

minivanlife said...

I'm so sorry that you are going thru this, but I think you are processing and handling it well. Focus on the good and the positive. I hope that your new "door" opens soon!

http://minivanlife.wordpress.com

Brittany said...

I'm sorry about your job.. but reading your thoughts on it, perhaps I should say congrats as well? From what I read, you seem pretty excited about all of the possibilities, as you very well should be! I know how much you truly loved your job, and I hope that whatever route you choose to go forth on will give you as much or more happiness as your job at the clinic.

This is a very boho chic, comfortable look and I love it! Especially those sandals.. what a great item to have in your closet!

Sal said...

Ugh, upheaval and limbo can be so tough. But you have a fantastic attitude about what this change could mean for your life. More power to ya!

Are those sandals Kork-Ease perchance? I'm a huge fan!

Caroline said...

D: sorry to hear about your job, that really sucks!

I really love your outfit though, especially the way you wore those leg warmers with the shoes.

oh, has anyone told you, you look a little like Lisa Edelstein? She's Dr.Cuddy on House. Maybe it's just me but I thought you two looked similar. c:

San said...

So sorry to hear this about the clinic and your job. Glad to hear that you don't have immediate pressure to get the next best job. Interesting to read how you feel about all that, it gives me something to think about.

Good luck to you and the clinic.

tess said...

I am so sorry to hear about your job. I am also sad to think about what will happen to all those who benefitted from the clinic hmm

love your sweater though, the belting is great there

Girl from the North Country said...

ugg, I'm so sorry about your job. It kills me when great oganizations have to shut their doors, the kindest people lost their jobs and their great services have to stop. I hope you are able to find something else to bring you jou in your job, I love the Etsy thing and know you could totally do it!

By the way, leg warmer socks! I love it!

Alyson said...

Like everyone has said, I am so sorry to hear about what is going down at the clinic. I am so sorry that something that felt so fulfilling to you has now closed its doors. I am so thankful for the experiences you had and the lives you impacted. {hugs}

I am so thankful that you have the ability to take this time away from work and really just discover what your next step should be. Take time to grieve as always the closing of this door, but so glad that you can process this instead of jumping into something that you could loathe.

Here for you!

Jen said...

Thank you for the lovely mention. You rock the socks and sandals look - legwarmers work perfectly!

Sorry to hear about your job - sometimes I think situations such as yours (losing a job that you love through no fault of your own) are sent to shake things up and help us refocus.

I hope you get more positive than negative things from this sudden change. :)

JoAnna Duncan said...

Loving the leg warmer look - and uplifted by the positive approach you're taking to an upsetting situation.

A number of years ago I went through a very traumatic life changing experience. One day while I was in a very dark place mentally, a wise man said something to me that has affected my approach to every negative situation I have since faced, he said "You can't let this rob you of your joy. Look inside yourself for something positive - be it patience, empathy, whatever - that wouldn't be there if you had not gone through this. Grab hold of that spark of positivity and pull yourself out of the darkness."
I've never forgotten his words.
Keep looking for the positive and inspiring us with your cool style!

Apologies for such a long rambling comment!

www.thebeanscene.onsugar.com

Senorita Fashionista said...

You have such a positive uplifting attitude, I know only great things are around the corner for you Darling! I know it!
I absolutely adore the sandle and leg warmers, too cute!
xoxo Jolie

Seval said...

that's so many things to think about... i love how you can think every possibility... i'm sure you'll find the best way to go on, and you can make everything much better that it really is... i really believe this, sorry! :D but, i have to say: i was just waiting for the moment you'll work on your etsy shop... remember the vintage bags? yes, I'm waiting for them :D and more :) Love you!

Fabulocity in Amish Country said...

I love this outfit!! That cardigan is awesome! I love how you paired the leg warmers with the sandals! :)

Lucy Marmalade said...

Sorry to hear about your work troubles, but it sounds like you are handling them gracefully. Your sweater makes me die a little inside with desire.

RETRO REVA said...

Sorry that your job is going away, i do think you would have a great career in fashion! It would be wonderful to love what you do and do something you're very good at ! I miss the days of counseling (yep) as i felt soo fufilled helping others. Then i "settled", now i'm looking again! You have a light that can't be squashed no matter what you do !

Amanda said...

I'm sorry that your in this job situation. I think you've done a really good job at recognizing all the emotions you have over it though, since I know things like that can be overwhelming.

Cute outfit, as always :]

Kate said...

So sorry to hear about the situation at work- when we have jobs like that we get so emotionally involved with all the people concerned (I used to work at a small alternative school)- so it is really hard when things get ugly. I think it is wonderful that you are able to write out your feelings this way, and so constructive. Keep your head up!

I also wanted to thank you for checking out my blog and commenting! I was having a pretty bad day and it really meant a lot.

Last thing: are your sandals here Kork-ease? I found a new pair in green on sale at Burlington Coat factory (buried treasure!), but didn't know how to style them- thanks for the idea :)
-Kate (thegenuinearticle.tumblr.com)

Alyssa said...

I really like the leg-warmers with sandals look! It's a win!

Also... well that is really a bummer about your job... I would love to know more about what you did. But I suppose... it might really open up doors for you elsewhere? You will have to see and of course share with us all what you find! :D

Anonymous said...

I am a decently new reader, but I just love all your outfits, and your style in general. =) I also really like the leg-warmers with the sandals - so very "early adopter." I also enjoy reading about your philosophy - I love finding other people who take a step back and examine the life they're living.

Keep up the stellar work!

Kimberellie said...

Yeah! The legwarmers with sandals looks awesome!

Sorry to hear about your job... That is sad! It sounds like it was a wonderful job (the sort I would like!).

Oh, and :-D!!!!!!! I was so excited to have you comment on my blog! It was like being visited by a celebrity! (Yeah, I think you're cool). :-D ! And it would be so super awesome if you found my fringe purse (I know it's out there, I know it!). Feel free to visit me virtually any time (and make me feel super special!).

ps. Chictopia thinks we're 80% alike. No wonder I think you're so super swell (yes, I am saying I think I'm super swell...;-)

Celine said...

I'm so sorry...whatever you went through sounds awful. But I have to say - most people never figure out what really makes them happy and fulfilled in life. I still haven't! So the fact that you can say that, at least, is a truly wonderful thing. I totally know what you mean about your blog not being your entire life. That's what mine is right now and I think I need to get back to having a real job. Ha. Anyway, I love your Etsy shop and definitely think you should put more thought into that! And good luck - with anything/everything :)

Corie said...

Sorry to hear the sad news..but I know something else will come your way --it could bigger and better for you...never know.

And of course, you are dressed absolutely gorgeous.

Kyla said...

First, I LOVE your sweater and the entire ensemble, really.

Second, I think you have a great outlook. As sad as it may be, there is a very liberating and exciting sense of freedom and adventure that comes with things like this. Enjoy it!

Wardrobe Warrioress said...

So sorry to hear about your bad news! Love the sweater & socks though.

http://wardrobewarrioress.blogspot.com/

Lara said...

So sorry about your job! My husband was out of work for 6 months and the job he has now is temporary only. It is such a tough thing. He took his old job in order to gain experience in design (he's an architect) and they let him go 4 months later. He felt like he made a bad choice and it was right before our wedding. I am so glad you have a good outlook on it.

Rebecca, The Clothes Horse said...

Love those shoes and the leggings make for a really cool styling detail.

what i would have worn... said...

Take your time hon. It’s important after what you’ve been through. People as wonderful as you will always find fulfilment because it’s a frame of mind, a choice you make.
xo Nat

Ps totally loving the legwarmers idea. Would steal it if it ever got cold enough here.

ejessop said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your job, though I'm awed with the way you're planning to use it as a springboard forward into new exciting stages of your life. It's lovely to see someone not just stating "well, I'm sure it's for the best...somehow," but really considering the positive aspects of the situation and how to use this new freedom in the most beneficial ways. Best of luck with your next steps!

Lisa said...

I really like this outfit<3

A and A said...

Im sorry to hear about this... but your right, with each loss comes great growth and new doors to opportunities that would otherwise be forced to pass pass by.
Ted.com is one of my favorite sites (im a nerd really) and this is one of my favorites yet... thought of you after watching...
please take 15 minutes and go here:

http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/ken_robinson_says_schools_kill_creativity.html

let me know what you think....

lots of love.

Amy

refusestolabel.blogspot.com

closet365 said...

Incredibly sad to hear that your clinic might be closing. Good eating disorder clinics are SO important.

But, it sounds like you have the right attitude and opportunity to grow. Good for you.

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