Yesterday I was commenting on Merl's blog and after I clicked ok to post it, I got a little twinge of "Oh? Wait. Was that too. . . strange?" So I texted her really quick to give a brief disclaimer of like "oh, I hope didn't go too far" or some shit like that and realized that I have a sort of block still. I think the reason I don't tweet so much or leave comments too often is because I feel nervous about people finding out that I am actually really strange. I mean, maybe everyone is sort of strange, I just have this terrible impulse lately to just let all my strange out of the bag. Unfortunately, I would never feel comfortable doing that here since this is no longer a very anonymous space seeing as how you know my name and where I live, and my family reads this and who knows who else, so I have been toying with the idea of an alter ego blog where you don't ever see pics of my face, or I am always in a different disguise (like wigs and masks), and I don't post very often, maybe once a week, but when I do its really to just relieve all the strange I have tucked away in my little shy corner of my brain. The outfits would be completely crazy and outlandish, utterly impractical, maybe scandalous. My words may be a little controversial, things I don't really feel like arguing about, or making waves about here. You would have no idea when or what name I was under, and I would comment on your blogs with the alias and say what ever I want (I would never use my alias for evil so don't worry about that!) Unfortunately like a silly villain, I have told you my entire plan now so it will pretty obvious when the weirdo (named Longshadow or some such) in the mustache comes to your blog and says, "for some reason this outfit makes me want to strip down to my undies and run through the sprinklers" that it is actually me in disguise. But how would you know really? It could be someone else who just read this and just wants to mess with me now. Oh crap. Maybe I should never have said anything. Now I am going to be all paranoid. See. . .. some of the weird is showing already.
Wore this last night to a bowling Bachelor / Bachelorette party for my brother and his fiance who are getting married this Saturday. They are both 19, thus the bowling instead of drinking and strippers. Wholesome fun. These were taken by my tripod outside of the alley. Yes, I excused myself from the game, put my sandals back on and headed out front to take these in front of dudes smoking and talking on cell phones. And. . . do you want to see the most horrible thing I have ever photographed? I found this when I was taking these pictures. I almost stepped on it. DO NOT click on this link if you are feeling sensitive or have PMS. Maybe I should have saved it for the alter ego blog.
Romper: vintage thrifted (the same one from last week that I accidentally listed as a dress)
Vest: vintage gifted
MIA Sandals: Urban Outfitters
Purse (actually a crappy thing, water stained and broken latch, but for some reason I like it) thrifted
p.s. I am probably not going to do this. Just to let you know. I was just thinking about it.
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Love the outfit, and the rambling :) Plus you have a bit of a cheeky smile going on in those pictures, which suits what you are writing about too.
PS I clicked on the link. I am possibly more intrigued than I should be because I am not actually certain what that alien/featherless/furless/guts thing *is*. Ho-hum what a great start to sleep this is!!
Oh, don't worry about the strangeness. Everyone is, but few show it. Before I clicked on the link to the bird I knew EXACTLY what it would be. A couple of weeks ago my mom and I were walking and I saw the same thing right before she stepped on it, but not in time to prevent her from squishing the thing! I sound still haunts me in flashbacks!
FABULOUS as always, xoxo
show your strange more often! i think i like you all the more for it.
Great outfit! I love the dedication you showed by going outside and taking this pic during the bowling game.
Ewww at the grossest thing you've ever photographed. LOL!
Anthea,
Embracing Style
I couldn't click on the saddest thing because I'm not sure what PMS is... So I don't know if I'm sensitive... Cause I'm sensitive on many things ;-/ Ok...
Oh, your brother is getting married so soon? I remember back in Christmas or another holiday that they told they got engaged... So, I wish them happiness for a long life! What will you wear then? So exciting!!!!
And yet another romper with lovely florals and brown accessories... You know whom to write when you wish to sell them :) I wore one of yours yesterday... I wear them very often but couldn't photograph before...
Anyways, gorgeous lady! You're not that weird, don't worry, just most of us keep them inside... So your weirdness may make us feel less weird about our weirdness... Does that make any sense?
Optum!
maybe some alter ego guest posts now and then?
I adore your weird. I say let it shine!
Also adore that vest. Yum.
that IS the most terrible, sad thing ever.
Haha I think I would love getting alter ego comments! I think people would have a good laugh over something like that. I know I would! Besides.. who cares what everyone else thinks!
it is very sad, but its part of life. there's also part most people that is fascinated with the grotesque, the strange, the unknown....and so while i do think its a downer, i don't blame you for posting it!
GO FOR THE ALTER EGO BLOG! who doesn't need an outlet for that kind of stuff? im kind of bummed you came up with that awesome idea and not me!
Let the freak flag fly, Christina! But the alter ego blog sounds hilarious
I sometimes feel weird too when I post comments -- did I say the wrong thing? Will they not like me now?
I really enjoy reading your posts, however weird and strange you think some of them can be --- I think you should keep some of the alter ego stuff here!
To my mind, weird is normal.
I didn't click the link... I'm a coward.
The more strange that leaks out of that beautiful noggin of yours, the easier it is to know how friggin' awesome you are. Many thanks for keepin' it real - we're all weirdos. Normal people suck.
lol, Wow, took me so long to wonder why you guys were not drinking at 19..forgot its different over in US...
Thats kinda a shame not being able to have champagne at your own bachelorette :-(
Love rompers! Do you think this is a trend that will stick around for a bit? Hope so.
ugh! that was the grossest thing i've ever seen! so glad you posted it :) and i love the romper and the fact that you took pics in front of smoking, cell-phone talking dudes.
Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww pooor lil baby bird.
Now onto more important things, I completely know how you feel about this topic. For me though, I completely go in the other direction. I hate posting boring comments haha. I like my personality to show through my comments or else really, whats the point? (for me anyways)
As much as I would love for you to leave me a comment through an alias about undies and sprinklers, I think you need to let go and just say whatever the heck you want to say! don't censor yourself, if people can't deal with your crazy (which by the way, is not that crazy) then that's their own damn loss! right? right?
Anyhoo I think you shouldnt be so worried, people with excentric personalities are the best kind of people out there. For me, if someone writes cutes shoes! I think... did you even read all my random ramblings? or did u just look at my pictures? Now I'm a relatively new blogger so i dont have a large following and im completely honored any time I get comments, but I hope people read all my blogs too because that's where I share all my thoughts and random garbage. Sometimes it's about nothing really, who knows, I just talk and talk and talk but that's me. You learn a lot more on my blog than you do if you talk to me in person so enjoy it haha! (not you but anyone really!)
okkkkkkkkkkk done chatting your ear (eye?) off. It's hillarious you went out with your tripod. so cute. why didnt u have someone come out and snap some shots for you?
ok the end.
I'm also often nervous about posting things that are too outre, or commenting on other blogger's posts. I worry that I'm going to go too far or come across in a way I didn't intend.
It's a strange feeling, the mix of vulnerability and power that posting pictures of yourself accompanied by snippets of your inner monologue - on the Internet, which is as intimate as your living room and simultaneously as public as a town square - brings. It makes me uneasy sometimes, and very happy others.
I love the idea of the alter-ego blog. There used to be special times of the year when people would wear costumes and disguises and say outrageous things under the veil of anonymity. It helped relieve the tensions of civilized life. Those traditions have largely atrophied: Halloween is for kiddies and the Lords of Misrule no longer make merry during the Christmas season. Wouldn't revisiting that concept of societal release in a modern forum be interesting - and fun?
You look lovely :)
I'm really wishing I wouldn't have looked at that link...now I feel a little sad.
I blogged about you today... I am such a fan of your unique style.
If you have some time, look at the post.
http://bessseidler.blogspot.com/2010/07/nifty-thrifty.html
<3 Bess
Hi my dear.
I wish I could text you right now, because a week or so ago I took a picture of a dead mouse and I would send it to you. It was sad, too. But I was eating my lunch alone outside and I saw this little guy who could have slept in one of my rings. He actually made me feel really good for some reason. Just like, "Hey, guy- I know there are some ants on your face, but I enjoy your company nonetheless."
Ryan and I saw a little bird guy, too who looked just like yours. That's really sad. But Duncan tried to eat it, which is a good reminder that some bigger, sad, hungry guy is probably feeling a bit better right now.
I don't know if you ever heard of Joe, our pigeon friend (this would be back in my archives), but he stopped showing up a couple of weeks ago after he and I had a strange encounter. I'm really sad about that, too.
Animals are a hard thing to wrap my brain around. Especially when you see things like that and you worry about their parents and stuff.
Also, if you ever do your underground alias blog- that would be awesome. I would even join (not that I'm inviting myself...) and then it could be like a collective entity of maybe a handful of people who write under the same alias whenever they want to relieve the strange. Look at me piggybacking your ideas.
Wanna know something strange?
I rarely change my purses during the week. But yesterday morning I went into my closet and pulled out that exact same bag you're wearing today (vintage coach, no?- you say crappy thing, but it looks identical). I put it back, though because I can't have nice things and it has pen marks all up on it.
.Haiku
(and I got your email, but I feel like I have to catch up on YOU first before I respond. Which I will.)
I am super weird...so don't even think twice about that fact that you are weird. To prove this...When i clicked on your link, my first reaction was a laugh and then an "ew" followed up by "poor birdie". Yeah, OK, weird. I know. I think weird people are the best kind.
Secondly, I like the little vest! Such an amazing color. Maybe its because of where you live but all your clothing is so warm colored. I love that! Chicago is very bland color oriented. I have no idea why either. Maybe because all the buildings are bland colored?
I would love it if someone left a comment like that on my blog! There's a limited amount that can be said about one set of photos without resorting to the truly weird, and let's face it, weird is much more fun!
I think having an alter-ego could be fun, though. Wait a month and no one will remember this post :)
I love that you're weird. That's one of the things that draws me to your writing. I also happen to think the comments that you've left at our blog are endearing and genuine - which make them totally special. I think it's you're blog - so let it flow and say what you want.
Although, take this with a grain of salt, because this is coming from one weirdo to another. Sometimes I leave comments on other blogs saying what i really think, and I leave feeling like I've left an awful impression and they're sitting there scratching thier head instead of itching to see my blog (see - i think I just made an itchy/scratchy pun...)
I love your craziness and will probably also keep this comment short to avoid sounding like a weirdo. But please stay golden, sweet and real like you are. :)
Let your freak flag fly!
I don't even think the example comment you gave was "weird". It was quirky, funny, and sassy. Why have a blog if you can't vent and be yourself right? Or at least why have a blog if you feel like everytime you write you have to monitor yourself. No fun. The people that love you will stay and the others...well too bad for them. They're missing out.
I say shout it out!
can't believe I clicked the link and now I have to go to bed. Thanks! ok bye.
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I like the strange... but I know the feeling. One time I left a terribly immature but funny comment on a blog and I spent all night thinking that she figured out I have the mind of a 13 year old boy.
(Sorry if this appears more than once - Blogger is flaking out on me!)
There's something weirdly beautiful about that picture of the baby bird. I think because it is so translucent and vulnerable-looking on the hard background? Or maybe I'm just letting my own strange get the best of me. :) I grew up on a farm in Zimbabwe, and I used to be fascinated by the little rodents and birds the farm cats killed. They would usually get bored and leave them on the ground without eating them, and I would visit them every day to watch the little bodies gradually decay and turn into sandy crumbs covered in ants and flies. The macabre is fascinating!
Andrea xx
P.S. Also, I love Haiku Ambulance's comment - "Hey, guy- I know there are some ants on your face, but I enjoy your company nonetheless." That's exactly what I would have thought, too!
First off, YES, I adore this outfit. You look lovely.
Secondly, I totally understand! I actually HAVE an alter ego blog. But I don't use it for some reason. I think I just figured at one point: if I can't attach my name to it, I don't want to write it.
I think it is because I have rather high writing ambitions. And if I were to ever get my act together I would like to publish in magazines etcetera. So I figure I should get used to writing the things I want to write in a way that I feel comfortable.
Though, I would LOVE to read your alter ego blog. You know what you could do...actually, I think I WILL do it, but do it sort of like fiction. Then it wouldn't have to be anonymous (because I for one would LOVE to read it) and if anyone got all up in your grill about it, you could say: it's fiction. ;-)
ps. you're not weird. you are AMAZING.
Love the braid!
An alter ego blog. I never thought of that. Oooh that could be great fun. But I barely have enough time for my real blog as it is. Haha.
I. Love. Strangeness! Please don't hide it or confine it to an alter ego. Let it all out! You can be as strange as you want in my blog comments.
Thank you for sharing that disturbing baby bird photo, haha. No srsly.
I'm sure your not that strange, I mean I think I'm pretty strange sometimes. You can be as strange as you want on your blog and I will still read.
Lovely outfit by the way.
lusting that vest and purse!! I just found a vintage coach purse that looks very similar to that at a fleamarket in nyc!
www.lovelywanderlust.com
You are awesome. :D
this really made me laugh. you're the best!
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